You Are Not A Failure
I write this to all the people out there who feel broken, shit-out-of-luck and down in the deep dumps.
It is okay to ask for help.
It is okay to take a break from life's never-ending demands and push the reset button. You are not a failure because you packed your bags and thought about you for once. You are not a failure.
It is okay to ask for help.
You do not have to continue doing something you hate, instead of sacrificing to something you love. You're making sacrifices either way - do you want to continue to sacrifice your sanity and self-worth? Do not get caught up in life traps - the accumulation of wealth or fame. Even with those things, peace will be fleeting. Why live a life of regret and as a cautionary tale to the young and impressionable, rather than forging your path towards the life you want. Humility is a step towards freedom. You are not a failure.
It is okay to ask for help.
Don't be scared to admit that you are tired of fulfilling the dreams of others while neglecting your own. Don't be scared to admit that you have forgotten the dreams you had when you entered adulthood in the first place. Think back to your 16 year old self: in those naive, carefree days of summer, what dreams did he or she have? It can be tough, but it will make you stronger. You are not a failure.
It is okay to ask for help.
Whenever. Wherever. Those who care for you and love you will help as best as they can. They will not judge you for needing them, especially at your most vulnerable. You are not a failure.
It is okay to return home.
Take a chance to get your mind right - soul search, lose that 10 pounds that's been hanging on, make a friend or two. You are not a failure.
I know what it feels like. I was in mourning; I was depressed; I was not the girl I used to know. I was the the girl who quit everything and moved back home for 9 months. At first I was resistant to it, then I made sure I made as many plans as I could to ensure I took what I could from the experience. I learned so many lessons during that period. Today, I look back at that period of time and I am glad I took the chance to gain some clarity and stillness. There is much about me that will never be the same, but I am not a failure. Neither are you.